I canNOT believe I am doing this, but I am doing this. I recently had a friend request that I share "how I do it all." Well, friends, this is how I do it all, or, rather, don't. This is an image of my bedroom/office at the moment. It could totally be one of those framed pictures you look at in a doctor's waiting room where you have to find a million hidden things. In fact, let's make this a fun little game. Find the following: 1. Playdough, 2. carpet sweeper, 3. one of those things you blow at birthday parties, 4. red fingernail polish. 5. my phone, always looking for my phone.
So, friends, it doesn't ALWAYS look like this, but it frequently looks like this. The truth is, if you have four kids at home ALL DAY and are trying to manage a blog and a small business and feed the kids and do the laundry and keep things livable, it just can't ALL get done ALL of the time. You gotta ignore the mess sometimes in order to meet a deadline or a missed deadline.
When your kids are constantly moving things around, the surfaces in your house end up looking like this. And then you get to a point where you are going to loose your mind if everything doesn't get put in the right place so you freak out on everyone and plan to spend all day getting things as they should be but get distracted by an idea you have for a blog post or a craft for the kids (yourself).
The truth is, I don't have a clue what I'm doing. I'm trying to figure it out: How to be a mom and manage a home and be a cook and plan meals and do all the grocery shopping on a budget and take care of the wife stuff and teach the kids and make money cause we need it desperately. Whoa. That is just ridiculous. I mean, that's seriously like seven full time jobs. And on top of it all, I am a creator, and I have a deep need to create things, and sometimes, in order to create, I let other stuff fall to the wayside. Truth is, I hate cleaning and cooking and grocery shopping so much. SO MUCH. Truth is, we live in a smallish house with six people and there's too much stuff and not enough space, and it makes me want to cry at times. Truth is, I'm NOT doing it ALL, but I AM a doer. I am very typically DOING, very rarely resting, so this mess is not a result of laziness. It is a result of the opposite of laziness. And while I'm glad I'm not lazy, I need to better learn how to keep things manageable up in here. Cause IT IS STRESSFUL!
Heath and I are continually reevaluating our lives. What is working? What is not? Do we need to hire a housekeeper (yes)? Can we afford it (no)? Do we need to send the kids to school? Should we hire someone to help with the kids a couple days a week? Can we afford it (no)?
So, to all of those I have tricked into thinking I am "doing it all", find solace in this today... I am doing a lot, but I certainly am NOT doing it all.